oh hello

...looking at this new blog/company I found online had me let out a big sigh and think and wish - if only..if only i had more time, if only ... and the run of the regular excuses..it inspired me to WANT to start making clothes again..not that i dont find inspiration to do so on a daily basis, i do..but it would be nice if I could carve out some time for myself to at least execute one piece of clothing I design and make, after all I have the skills and tools to do so but alas it is the time..and sometimes energy that I dont have. But as they say, where there's a will there's a way, right?

Oh and yes, I've stopped bitching about my husband (as someone stated on formspring)..not because there is less to bitch about...haha just kidding, there is less, but its also the fact that ever since my mom died and having had that interview with Hillary Frank - its kind of opened up new ways of seeing and doing things for me.

You know, its not to say that i have less fears, less worries or less anxiety but ive learned how to let go the majority of them because I choose to only concern myself with what I can control..I can't control my husband. I need to accept the fact that he is who he is and if I have a problem, I just need to spit it out. And I am only to blame for my complaints especially if I haven't ever voiced them. I am the one in control of my life and happiness. The responsibility is on me. It is very freeing when you can let go of things..not that its easy but once you get started the feeling is just amazing and it rolls into other aspects of life.

so anyways...how are things? you still there? following? thank you if you are..I'll write more in the months to come, promise..especially once I'm on maternity leave =D